I’m happy and at the same time Im sad and I’m trying to figure out how could that be? I’m tired. I’m tired of looking at them being happy. I envy that girl who makes him laugh. I want to be the one who makes him smile and laugh. I want to be his reason why he wake up in the morning. I want to be the one he’ll text to every morning a “Good Morning” message. I want to talk to him all day.  I’m happy to see him smile but knowing that I’m not the reason , makes me sad.  the sad part is, we’re just friends and that’s all.