can we skip past near-death clichés?

(PPPPPPPPPPPPPP) I’m confused. I don’t understand what I’m feeling right now. I don’t know If I like him or not. I don’t know because he’s my friend and Idk if its an actual crush or if he’s just a good friend. Idk if he’s acting like that to all the girls. ugh. I can’t understand. I always want to talk to him. I want to play dumd with him. I want to help him in everything. I want to sit beside him. I want to take a picture with him. ugh !!!! Dx Why am I so confused? Help me :( It’s killing me.